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#i have never spoken about this#but i take thc/cbd oil for chronic pain management#and i’ve been on it for four years now#it’s way more common than you think#i use it more so for sleeping purposes because i struggle with pain-related insomnia#and in my case i’m not on a dose that makes me feel “high”#people act so surprised when i have brought up that i take it but it doesn’t have as many side effects as most opioids#and i take mine under the guidance of a pain specialist and have tga approval to use it#all of this to say to perhaps not judge people who utilise it to manage their pain levels#i know i would rather not take anything#but chronic pain really takes a toll on your body not just physically but mentally#anyway mini confession over#personal
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Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.
#bpd#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#actually borderline#bpd splitting#lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too#haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days#irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really#I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection#like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person#then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually
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public apology to everyone who dms me and then later sees the exact same thing i said to you in a public post. i promise we are having a real and honest human connection but also i'm trying out my material on you. it’s an unfortunate hazard of ever talking to anyone who thinks they’re a little bit funny. i really am sorry and it will happen again.
#what is friendship if not a low key comedy workshop#this is (obviously) (i hope) about fandom nonsense or similar#i would never publicly share someone's personal things without permission#i mean please don't come into my dms specifically to drop your deepest traumas if we have never spoken before like do first send me#your thoughts about the Character for four to six business days first#but your secrets are safe
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kathryn janeway my favourite heroine of a greek tragedy
song is alt-j - philadelphia
#something something about finally becoming bigger than life. which must be a rather lonely thing to be#show changed my brain chemistry so bad that i had to open an editing software. NEVER AGAIN (working on another edit already)#full disclosure i do ship j/c and j7 simultaneously bc i enjoy being evil#ahhhh i have so much to say about janeway...#esp her in tuvix!! i hate how this episode is spoken about. tuvix and how janeway dealt with him is such a good metaphor of how she is goin#to get more desperate and willing to take questionable decisions to get her crew to safety. and i loved how they paralleled kes wanting#neelix to return to crew wanting to get back home#ahhh i love this show#my friend who knows about voyager only from my yapping watched this and thought that janeway hugged seven and not jaffen#i call it yuri kuleshov effect#star trek voyager#kathryn janeway#my post#chakotay#seven of nine#j/c#j7
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Thinkin bout Sampo Koski rn as like. His character n what we get of him in honkai star rail and he fucking. He confuses me like. There has to be So Much more to him like
The general vibes of him and especially how other characters treat him is that of comic relief, a punching bag, a goof, just a slick conman causing trouble. It's genuinely difficult NOT to insult him n treat him badly with dialogue options and any time he's even mentioned March 7th hisses at him. He's literally a cryptid in belobog. He's a joke.
But. But. There's his light cone. It makes me insane. It contradicts all of that.
In it he's competent. He's badass. He's omnipotent. He's able to somehow know a sniper from however far away is locked on him and address them specifically.
And even like... in the entire plot of jarilo-vi he's spoken of like he's not much. He's a 4 star character. But he's practically as present as bronya and seele and Gepard and his involvement in the story is ASTRONOMICAL. He has a part in every major event. He's the one who drags the Trailblazers and bronya into the Underworld. He's the one who takes you to svarog, to the overworld again. He gets Natasha and saves you from svarog. He's the first character you ever meet on jarilo.
And he seems to just vanish before you confront cocolia. But no. Sampo is the one who has the last word and wraps up the entire mission on jarilo-vi. He fucking breaks the forth wall. Jarilo-vi both begins and ends with Sampo.
He calls himself shadowy comic relief yet he seemingly orchestrated everything. What is he. What the fuck is he doing. What else is up with him and when will we get more of him. I want to bite into him and tear him apart.
#sampo koski#honkai star rail#IM NORMAL IM NORMAL IM NORMAL#the fact he's 4 star vexes me#like.hes more present than gepard and clara and they are 5 stars#my theory is like dan heng we'll get a 5 star version of sampo#but also if he never gets more screen time i will fucking eat my own foot#like whay is he. who. what the fuck is going on#and is this a masked fools thing??? are the masked fools about this shit?? like. is it all just to put on a show?#or is he actually wanting to fix communities and help people#why did he go and get natasha. thay one gets me. thats such like. out of his way obvious selflessness#and he's shown and spoken of more like a smarmy selfish bastard only for himself#but he went and got natasha. he brought bronya to the underworld. he lead you to belebog at the beginning#i literally havent played hsr in months. because i have sampo brain worms#he is the worm aha made an emenator and he is in my brain
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elaborating on a post from last night.
back when the good omens show first came out, i saw this fandom quickly dismiss concerns transfems had about the transmisogynistic tropes present in the show, the book, and gaiman's other work. i saw this fandom praise a depiction of a man disguising himself as a woman with the sole intention of gaining access to a child and influencing them into evil as a bold, positive representation of gender nonconformity. unfortunately i, being very young at the time and not as familiar with transphobia as it applied to trans women as i was with how it applied to myself (a tme enby), was part of this dismissal. i, like many other good omens fans, participated in brushing aside trans women's valid concerns in favor of supporting neil gaiman's bullshit. but i have since left the fandom, learned, and realized how fucked up it was.
so it's honestly sickening to see this same fandom now use defense of and support for trans women as a shield to excuse neil gaiman's bullshit once again. i believe that tortoise media had motives for wanting to break the story that had more to do with gaiman's milquetoast support for trans rights than they did concern for his victims, but i also believe the victims. i wish scarlett and k had come forward about their abuse with literally any other outlet, and it's entirely possible that one or both of them have bigoted beliefs about trans people themselves, but i'm not going to dismiss what they went through just because they aren't perfect victims or perfect people.
it's without question that gaiman had sexual relationships with both of these women, both being in their early 20s while he was in his 40s and 60s, one being a fan he met when she was a teenager and the other being his employee, respectively. that alone should make you want to distance yourself from him and his work. it also seriously makes me doubt his innocence that his own defense of himself is that k is just still so upset about the way their relationship ended that she's making sa allegations to get back at him almost two decades later and that scarlett is literally delusional and has created false memories of assault due to a medical condition that she does not fucking have.
we have seen time and time again that victims get absolutely no reward for coming forward about abuse, especially so when their abuser is a wealthy public figure. the idea that women are incentivized to create false allegations is a straight up lie and i had thought, after you all were fooled by depp and his pr team not too long ago, that we had all moved past believing it, but i guess fucking not.
#and to the terfs using this as proof of trans women being evil: fuck OFF.#you are just as scummy as tortoise themselves using these women's abuse as ammunition for your bigotry#when if gaiman had never spoken about trans people you would not care and if he had been anti trans you would be right there defending him#which i know because i have seen you lot stand by cisgender men accused of abuse when they are expressly anti trans#neil gaiman#good omens#i speak
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i have forces on the mind now so i’m going to discuss something i think WAY too much about
besides tails’ involvement in the game, the biggest thing i’d change is how infinite used the phantom ruby. imagine how much more of a threat he would’ve been if he used it for psychological warfare instead of just making an army
what if in that huge battle scene, instead of just reusing zavok and shadow etc etc, he used clones of resistance members and heroes to stir confusion and fear. to make everyone question who they’re fighting
what if the younger version of sonic that followed tails around was an illusion and a constant presence that reminded tails of his failure? he doesn’t help with anything, he just follows the fox around. kinda like how tails follows sonic around and, in his mind, doesn’t do anything worth while. we all talk about sonic being psychology tortured on the death egg but what if infinite did that to those who were found alone as well?
that does lead back to my wish that forces followed tails instead of the rookie. if infinite used the phantom ruby to stoke fear and confusion, tails being the main character means he would’ve had to push past his fear AND help others push past their own fears in order to help stop infinite which would’ve been a huge character growth moment for him
maybe i’m just pulling shit out of my ass but personally, i would’ve loved to see an infinite that used more mental warfare tactics instead of whatever tf he did in forces
#graveyardtxt#I MEAN COME ON!#HE CAN MAKE CLONES OF ANYTHING#DO SOMETHING WITH IT#DO DAMAGE#RUIN PEOPLE FOREVER IDK#i’m very passionate about how forces could’ve been yet i will never commit to rewriting it 🫶#i may have spoken about this before but very briefly#infinite the jackal#miles tails prower#sonic forces
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here is the second poseidon 'snippet'. this takes place after this part! hope you guys enjoy a little look into poseidon's home life...
first snippet here!
there's a masterlist now!
*not long after poseidon had received telemachus’ gift and said good night to everyone*
poseidon: *making his way through the ithacan palace’s halls to the entrance for the gardens*
poseidon: *holds a hand to where the gift is kept in his chiton and thinks back to all of telemachus' questions and interest in him*
poseidon: *internally to himself* hmm i wonder what he would have thought, if he knew his father’s and mine’s true relationship-
odysseus: *calling from behind poseidon* poseidon!
poseidon: *jumps a little because he didn’t hear odysseus approaching*
poseidon: *puts his hand down and turns to face odysseus*
poseidon: odysseus…i’ve been gone only moments, what have i possibly done?
odysseus: nothing-
poseidon: *hand on his hip* what do you want then?
poseidon: *pinches his nose bridge with his free hand* please don’t say another dinner
odysseus: what- no!- *coughs*
odysseus: trust me there will be no family dinners for a while…
odysseus: *under his breath* sitting for hours next to you was enough ruthlessness for one evening
poseidon: *dropping his hand from his face* what was that?
odysseus: i said what i said
poseidon: *rolls his eyes* well next time, maybe don’t let my niece get involved
odysseus: *grinning* oh so you want a next time then?
poseidon: *hand drops from hip and slightly panicking* THAT’S NOT- I MEAN-
odysseus: *tucks hair behind his ear*
odysseus: oh poseidon, as good as that sounds….
odysseus: *now has his arms crossed over his chest*
odysseus: *facade drops* …no thanks.
poseidon: *sigh of relief*
poseidon: just- just tell me why you’re here
odysseus: *still in little shit mode* i mean this is my palace, i do live here
poseidon: *about to start pulling out his own hair in frustration*
poseidon: odysseus…please
odysseus: *grin returns* yes, yes, go on, since you’ve already proven you’re so good at begging…
poseidon: *scowls*
odysseus: *grin finally leaves his face and his arms return to his sides*
odysseus: ok look… i just thought, considering i was the host for this evening, i would follow xenia and escort you back to the cove…
poseidon: *sighs*
poseidon: *shakes his hand in front of him in a ‘no worries’ motion*
poseidon: no need… i’m able to make my own way back home
odysseus: are you sure? i mean they are your brother’s rules…
odysseus: *not really wanting to ever see zeus again after his last experiences*
poseidon: *dropping his hand and snorting out a laugh* i’ll make sure my brother doesn’t bother anyone about the lack of normal hospitality tonight
poseidon: *turning back around to leave* go back to your family odysseus
odysseus: *not to look a gift horse in the mouth* uh sure
odysseus: *about to turn and make his way back to the dining hall*
poseidon: *from over his shoulder* oh and odysseus?
odysseus: uh yeah?
poseidon: …don’t go easy on my niece
poseidon: remember… ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves
odysseus: *rolls his eyes and while he now knows that phrase isn’t true now….he decides to humor poseidon*
odysseus: wasn’t planning on it.
*both leave in opposite directions*
*a short while later in poseidon’s palace*
poseidon: *walking into the bedroom* wife i’m back
*no response or movement*
poseidon: *raised eyebrow as he thought she’d be home* amphitrite?
*still nothing*
poseidon: *sighs* i guess she made last minute plans for tonight
poseidon: *goes to get changed when he remembers about his gift*
poseidon: *takes the gift out of his chiton, unwraps it and looks at it again*
poseidon: *remember telemachus' smile from the happiness of him accepting it*
poseidon: *huffs a laugh at the fact that odysseus produced a son that may look identical to him, but completely different in personality*
amphitrite: what’s got you laughing? what do you have there?
poseidon: *quickly shoves the gift back in his chiton, and turns to face his wife*
poseidon: *dodging her question* i thought you weren't here… you didn’t respond to my calls
amphitrite: i was just checking on fysallída, he hadn’t been his usual self tonight.
poseidon: *eyes widen in worry*
poseidon: what do you mean? he was fine earlier! is he sick? should i call apollo?
amphitrite: *smiles at poseidon’s worried rambling*
amphitrite: *moves closer to poseidon and brushes her hand through his hair in comfort*
amphitrite: and he still is fine my love. i think he just missed you tonight.
amphitrite: also while our nephew may be able to help some animals… i don’t think sea creatures fall under his ability
amphitrite: besides, he was playing with pelagos and kýma
poseidon: *the worry leaves his eyes* if you say so... i’ll just check on him before we go to sleep.
amphitrite: *hand leaves poseidon’s hair, and now joins her other one in crossing over her chest*
amphitrite: now, back to my original question…. what do you have there that had you laughing?
poseidon: *was hoping she’d forget* uh… uhh…
poseidon: …moly?
amphitrite: *raised eyebrow*
amphitrite: the king of ithaca- odysseus gave you…moly?
poseidon: *furrowed brows at the thought of odysseus giving him a gift*
poseidon: this isn't from odysse- *coughs* i mean- no… he didn't
poseidon: it's… from his son.
amphitrite: *now has both her eyebrows raised in disbelief*
amphitrite: the prince of ithaca, gave you moly.
poseidon: *now panicking as he's the god of the seas, not of lies*
poseidon: well if you didn’t know…they're descended from hermes…
poseidon: and he practically hands out this stuff… the prince probably didn’t know what it truly was.
amphitrite: *staring at the clear not moly shaped item, hidden in her husband’s chiton*
amphitrite: *deciding to leave it be for now* uh huh, whatever you say husband
*poseidon leaves the bedroom and heads to the palace reef gardens where amphitrite had not long come from*
*sensing the gods approach, bioluminescent corals light the area like oil lamps would on land*
poseidon: *staring out into the reef* hmm where is he?
poseidon: *makes a whistling noise like a dolphin’s echolocation*
*two whinny’ing noises are heard, then seconds later two hippocampi appear and are hurriedly making their way to poseidon*
poseidon: *strokes the both of them on their faces* yes, yes i'm home… where’s fysallída?
poseidon: *suddenly feels something small, bump repeatedly into him from behind and hears tiny grunting sounds*
poseidon: *snorts in laughter and turns around*
*the tiny grunting noises get louder and quicker in excitement, the small sea creature that has been bumping into poseidon is none other than…a small yellow pufferfish*
poseidon: *placing his hand out for fysallída to settle into* hello little one, i heard you caused amphitrite some worry earlier
*fysallída puffs out a little bit and then wiggles more into poseidon’s hand still making tiny noises*
poseidon: ah! none of that…i said i was going to be gone this evening
poseidon: besides, i can’t always be home, i do have godly things to do i'm sorry to say
*pelagos and kýma both whinny at poseidon’s back*
poseidon: *turning around with fysallída still in his hand* and we can’t forget, you have these two to keep you company
poseidon: now, i’ve had a long and tiring evening, so i’m going to retire for the night.
*the pufferfish gives a final wiggle and swims out of his hand and then settles in between the two hippocampi*
poseidon: ok, you can all go back to whatever you three were doing-
*the three sea creatures all start to turn to leave*
poseidon: *putting one hand on his hip and raising the other to point at all of them, like he’s talking to children rather than sea creatures*
poseidon: but! try not to get into too much trouble, yes fysallída i am talking to you mostly
*almost ignoring poseidon, they all quickly swim back in the original distance they came from*
poseidon: i swear to zeus, if i wake up to an angry nymph at my palace doors again…
*poseidon claps his hands and the bioluminescent corals dim in response, leaving the reef in darkness again. he then turns to go back inside his palace, and finally head to sleep for the night*
#*amphitrite and poseidon in bed*#amphitrite: so i never asked… how did dinner go#poseidon: did you know odysseus became king when he was thirteen?#amphitrite: *not expecting odysseus lore* uh…no?#amphitrite: why do you know? i wouldn't of expected you to have spoken to him much#poseidon: urgh- blame our niece#poseidon: she thought it would be hilarious to trick the prince into seating us together#amphitrite: *starts laughing*#poseidon: it’s not funny! it was the worst time of my immortal life#amphitrite: worse than when he stabbed you with your own trident?#poseidon: …second worse#amphitrite: *laughs more* so you decided to ask him about the age he became king..during dinner?#poseidon: no that was before… but i also learnt that he- *starts repeating all the odysseus lore he found out*#amphitrite: *sighs to herself accepting that she just doomed herself to another one sided conversation about odysseus*#yes poseidon has pet pufferfish#how did it become his pet? maybe i'll write about that another time... or you guys can decide for yourself#pelagos (pe-la-gos) = sea or open sea#kýma (kee-ma) = wave#fysallída (fee-sa-lee-da) = bubble#poseidon epic#poseidon#amphitrite#epic the musical#epic: the musical#friends in higher places au?#poseidon snippets#nonsense thoughts
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I don’t know how to explain any more clearly that it doesn’t MATTER if it seems legitimate to you. You have got to fact check every single headline and post and claim on the left just like you need to do on the right.
The left is NOT immune to misinformation and rushed reporting. And the more emotionally polarizing or shocking the talking points, sound bytes, and headlines are, the worse it is and more frequently it happens.
Learn to verify through multiple independent sources. If you can’t do that, you can’t trust it.
If you have to wait extra hours for the real information to come through vetted channels—NOT just one individual somewhere everyone links to, and not just one single media source either, EVEN if it’s a major news network—thats just how it has to be. What news outside of genuine local disasters near you TRULY needs your outrage and post-sharing in the next hour specifically?
Misinformation works best by not seeming like misinformation and by fitting in with the rest of what you already expect to see. It doesn’t help anyone to not be able to recognize and avoid the stuff.
#hey little star whatcha gonna queue?#and before I get any angry anons saying I’m making the argument that both sides are the same#I am not. and nowhere did I say that#and if your immediate reaction to any amount of criticism of leftist spaces or communication#is knee jerk outrage and defensiveness#this is an invitation to explore why that is for you.#this isn’t about anyone on here this is from conversations I’ve had with a few people IRL who have shared leftist misinformation a lot#so if you’re feeling attacked by this post and I haven’t directly spoken to you multiple times about misinformation with you responding bac#this isn’t. a vague post. about you. okay?#I cannot reiterate enough THIS IS AFTER IRL INTERACTIONS NOT A CAL OUT VAGUEPOST#and as one final note. IF YOU FOLLOW PEOPLE. WHO CONSTANTLY USE. THE MOST INFLAMMATORY WORDING CHOICES POSSIBLE.#YOU SHOULD NOT FOLLOW THOSE PEOPLE NO MATTER WHAT THEY TALK ABOUT.#no one communicating in true good faith to ALL PEOPLE about facts uses loaded language more than occasionally#the sooner you learn that the better. and that really starts narrowing down the pool of who you want to actually listen to (while still#verifying anything they tell you)#get higher standards!!!! and read some books or watch lectures about actual effective communication to broad groups without using tribalism#and also. anyone on the left trying to convince you of massive efforts and conspiracies that are anti everything#is also wrong 99% of the time and not a good source to listen to#never EVER assume conspiracy when it can be more simply explained through either#ignorance obliviousness incompetence financial greed or misunderstandings#the end. I’m really done this time. I’m just sick of seeing so many people fall prey to this#shh katie#cult escapee#politics and current events#don’t get swept up in the constant tsunami of performative online activism#election 2024#world events
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hey there kids want to read the truest description of X-Men ever given
THE IDEOLOGICAL LATCH-KEY CHILDREN OF CHARLES AND ERIK'S CATASTROPHIC DIVORCE I'M FUCKING DYING
#X-Men#Anthony Oliveira#I just needed to share this quote like#truer fucking words have NEVER BEEN SPOKEN#like how in House of X Charles gets Emma to come have a meeting#and she's like “okay what's this about”#and then Erik comes out of the shadows and she literally says#“Ah so it's the two of you TOGETHER.”#“this is either going to be incredibly heroic or terrifyingly reckless.”#like everyone Knows they are the founding duo#they aren't the oldest or the most powerful mutants#but EVERYTHING somehow always comes back to them#and so if both of them are involved in something it's like “aw crap duck and cover”#“Erik and Charles are on the up phase of the rollercoaster”#that whole sequence in Nation X#“the world walked around us. this thing of ours isn't ours anymore."#“you're wrong. it's always us. it always comes back to us.”#quoth Cyclops: “Charles and Erik can be a little intense.”
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everything good happens after midnight!
#alecto carrow#the carrow twin vision i have has existed in my head for so long but i’ve never spoken a single word about either of them.#until now!#say hi liv theinvisiblemuseum alecto 🫶#invisible museum
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Romantic in nature or not, I always just looked at that scene in MoA with the notion: Annabeth is convinced that Nico, a gay man, has a crush on her in this exact scene (or you know, a different scene in MoA, I don't remember), and since we know that Annabeth isn't the best on the emotional front, she read Luke's intentions incorrectly, and Percy did, as well, due to his jealousy of the guy.
(Now, I know that neither of these are the case, especially since I doubt Nico was thought to be gay until HoH, and this is around the time that Annabeth was starting to be characterized as Never Wrong About Anything Ever, but it's always been my go-to regarding the whole Luke-Annabeth debacle. What I mean to say is that I like your interpretation of the scenes, too)
Oh i actually believe Nico was fully intended to be gay starting around MOA at least (though I do believe Rick claiming he had figured that out about Nico earlier than that), because Rick was absolutely acknowledging queer topics in his writing at that time. Jason's arc particularly in the latter half of HoO is extremely bi-coded and there's just straight up a canonical polyamorous relationship in Serpent's Shadow, which came out several months before HoH.
Which does make Annabeth's line about that in MOA funnier, especially considering by that point Nico has held maybe one full conversation with her in the entire franchise thus far, maybe two or three if you wanna push it. I cannot emphasize enough how little they had spoken to each other - and tbh, continued to not speak to each other. Just in general. Like the most notable interactions the two of them have prior to the high-five scene in BoO are literally both in BoTL and it's one line and then one off-screen scene of Nico breaking up a fight between Rachel and Annabeth (where they were fighting over Percy) entirely for the purposes of going to save Percy. They barely interact in HoO. Nico and Annabeth have a chronic case of their plot lines being in different locations because only one of them is allowed to be active at a time due to their narrative roles. Annabeth is kidnapped for most of the TTC Nico scenes and Nico is at camp when they get to Annabeth, and then in TLO Nico's busy with all the Underworld stuff and flirting with Percy so he never interacts with Annabeth. Then Nico is off at Camp Jupiter when Annabeth's at CHB and then busy being kidnapped for the first stretch of the Argo II mission and only shows up when Annabeth is busy on her Arachne quest. And then Annabeth FALLS INTO TARTARUS when Nico gets there (and proceeds to pine at Percy) and then IMMEDIATELY after Annabeth gets out of Tartarus, Nico skips away with Reyna and Coach to drag the Athena Parthenos to camp. And then FINALLY they interact and it's not even Nico speaking directly to Annabeth really, just high-fiving her after insulting Percy to his face. He literally only says one word directly to her.
Like. I cannot overemphasize the absolute comical degree to which these two avoid interacting. They're like magnets repelling each other. And yet Annabeth is like "I think he has a crush on me - he spoke to me once, allegedly." Like ah yes, sure, HoO. Next you're gonna tell me you retconned them into having a FOURTH conversation! Don't get too wild!
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#annabeth chase#Anonymous#ask#sorry the absolute lack of Nico and Annabeth interactions in the franchise + Annabeth's crush theory will never not be funny to me#those two absolutely refuse to exist in the same room as each other#even in BotL Nico's like ''BEGONE I MUST ANGST'' and scurrying off to go do different plot stuff while Annabeth has a love triangle#hits his angst and pining quota and has to dip for a couple of chapters#like HoO has a lot of issues with lack of character interactions but Nico and Annabeth are consistent across the whole franchise#could not give less of a shit about each other no matter how much Rick tries to say they're totally friends off-screen#but yeah no HoO is incorrect about a lot of things and the context really does not add any merit to Annabeth's claim there#my personal hc for why Annabeth and everybody thought Nico has a crush on her is just. he was looking at Percy.#and Annabeth just happened to be standing next to Percy. so she thought Nico was just staring wistfully at her instead of her boyfriend#and after like a couple weeks of this occurring she's like ''i think he likes me?'' despite him having never spoken to her
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I LOVED To Be a Creature, and it genuinely creeped me out to see the things Edelgard and Hubert said to Byleth (though it's the same as the game, stripped out of its voice acting and background music, the dialogue is so much more horrifying). Really makes me wonder if Edelgard's love for Byleth is genuine in any way. Do you think there's any real love there or is it just obsession?
Thank you!!! I had a feeling that placing Edelgard and Hubert's words in a context that isn't meant to make them look flattering would really let their casual racism shine, and I'm glad it's seeming like that is in fact the impression people are getting lol. SO sorry for the late answer btw 😭😭😭
As for whether Edelgard's love is genuine... I got opinions lmao.
got a bit long lmao under the cut it goes
If Edelgard felt the way she does for Byleth on exclusively SS and CF, I could maybe see how this is a "genuine" love (insofar as a love steeped in "I may hate your race but you're special and Not Like The Other Ones because I think you're special to me" can, uh, ever be genuine, in any case). But because Edelgard still feels as strongly towards Byleth on AM and VW where she quite literally never talks to them directly in any meaningful way, it becomes waaaaay more like she's just weirdly obsessed with this person who saved her one singular time ever five years ago from an attack Edelgard set up. It makes the "love" way more forced and contrived and obviously trying to squeeze tears out of the player for standing up against the cute girly trying to murder them. Or, alternatively, it makes Edelgard come off as manipulative, saying that she just wanted to walk with Byleth and it makes her so sad to HAVE to fight Byleth because BYLETH wouldn't stand by HER - and she's saying this on AM/VW to a person she's talked to in conversation a cumulative, what? Hour? Two? Maybe a few days, being nice? Over the course of, being as absolutely generous as physically possible and not counting the five years Byleth was missing... two fucking years? She's shitting herself over fighting this stranger she doesn't fucking know? Yeah, sure buddy, whatever you say - you see what I mean?
And honestly even outside of those two routes, I think it's more that she sees Byleth as being hers rather than actually liking them for who they are. A body to stand next to her and tell her how right she is and comfort her - who doesn't have the background of "I was literally raised to think this is my only purpose in life" muddying the sincerity of the brown-nosing - who also happens to also act as The Perfect Fighter and The Perfect Strategist to actively help her get what she wants. That view of Byleth being a tool doesn't really go away unless they marry her, seen by how they quite literally get nothing for all they've done for Edelgard should they go unmarried to a noble (guess they just weren't meritable enough once their use to her was done).
As well as how much more Edelgard doesn't like Byleth disagreeing with her or otherwise going against her flow than pretty much anyone else in the game - you lose supports points if you don't think the Black Eagle Strike Force name she made is good, she quickly denies the notion that Byleth isn't detached from others/emotions and insists they are just like she is, she gives them the same callous and thoughtless words she was apparently given once in her life while they are in the midst of mourning their recently murdered father so that they get over it already and get back to being useful to her (directly saying she will only reach out her hand when it's time for HER to move forward, not when BYLETH heals from WATCHING THEIR DAD DIE IN THEIR FUCKING ARMS MAYBE A WEEK AGO). She never treats Byleth kindly unless they do everything she wants, which like. Isn't love???? At all????
There's just this... weirdly possessive air Edelgard has around Byleth that always threw me off, especially with how easily she admits to have been willing to kill them so far into CF and how readily she cuts ties with them the second the fighting's done (which is particular because how just how clingy she was to Byleth everywhere else - you know during all that time Byleth had a use to her). Incorporating that into being an intentional part of her character is certainly interesting, but not in a way that's flattering to the idea of Edelgard genuinely being in love with Byleth lmao.
Personally tho, even disregarding almost everything else, the simple explanation is that I don't think you can really sit there and say you love someone while openly hating part of their racial heritage. Wild thought, I know lmao
#ask#anon#anti edelgard#just to be safe#like. maybe if this ship was allowed to be seen as the clearly toxic ship it is i MIGHT could see it as a sort of twisted#''you're only good because *I* like you'' fucked up kinda deal#where the possessive and controlling shit baked into the relationship was embraced or even just like. acknowledged?? at all??#and where Edelgard ''doesn't care'' for Byleth's mixed-race status in her love for her...#...because she *already* dehumanized them as *being* hers regardless of Byleth's race. like they ALREADY aren't really a person to her#which is why their mixed-race status is just an annoying bug to her and not a deal-breaker (to downplay it SEVERELY but you get the idea)#but uh like it's not like at all lmao#there's no way in hell my ass is gonna be convinced Edelgard ''I hate Nabateans and want to obliterate all of them'' von Hresvelg#would ever actually genuinely love Byleth ''is literally part Nabatean'' Eisner WITHOUT getting over her hatred of Nabateans#and oops guess what she never does 🤷♀️#and yeah her ''facing you i grow weak'' and ''i just wanted to walk with you'' schtick on AM and VW looks shallow as helllllll dude#like bitch do NOT play with me you do not and frankly CAN not give a shit about this person sincerely#LITERALLY they have almost never spoken to each other. she could've just as well said this to fucking Raphael and have it mean just as much
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If there are a million Reeve Carney as Orpheus fans in the world, I am one of them. If there are only two Reeve Carney as Orpheus fans in the world, I am one of them (Eva Noblezada is the other). If there are no Reeve Carney as Orpheus fans in the world, Eva Noblezada and I are dead 😔
#hadestown#hadestown obc#reeve carney#eva noblezada#seriously im sick and fucking tired of the reeve carney hate on tiktok#'jordan fisher is the only orpheus that matters' 'jordan fisher shouldve originated orpheus on bway'#'they should replace the obc recording with jordan fisher' 'jordan fisher was the best thing to ever happen to hadestown'#shut up!!!!!!!#i adore jordan fisher but you are missing the point of theatre and hating on reeve in the process!!!!!#you can have a favorite but that doesnt mean the actors who are not your favorite shouldnt exist in that role!!!!!#but also your favorite is wrong!!!!#reeve carney brought more autistic swag to orpheus than anyone could possibly recreate!!!#he was naive he was soft spoken he was unaware of social expectations!!!!!#jordan fisher has such a raw powerful voice and thats not what orpheus needs!!!!! hes just a lil guy!!!!#hes just a lil guy who accidentally had a battle of the bands with the devil and won#because he has nothing in his brain except sing and love his girlfriend!!!!!#i love jordan fisher in everything ive ever seen him in and i adore his voice but please stop putting other actors down#im not a huge fan of the way jonjon briones plays hermes but im not out here talking shit about him!!@#or saying he should never have had the part in the first place#(btw i was joking about the 'your favorite is wrong' thing because - again - literally defeats the point of theatre)#please find ways to say that jordan fisher is your favorite without putting reeve carney down#and also please give reeve carney a chance and dont dismiss him just because he is less conventionally attractive#and hip in popular media and on social media#please give the role a chance for what it is and not just which actor you already like#i was pissed when i first found out they were taking damon daunno out for the obc and adding reeve#the only thing id ever seen or heard him in at that point was the live action rocky horror with laverne cox#and he was fucking riffraff#i was mad!!! i didnt think he could do it!!! but i love the show and i gave him a chance and now hes my all time favorite#between both touring casts ive seen and the pre bway cast recording and jordan fisher#just please stop being mean and give him a chance
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early in the morning after dead'nt, orange has a question.
usually he'd still be asleep long past now, but he wanted to ask about... TDL.
without the others interrupting.
so, he goes to chosen's door.
immediately this plan starts to slip off the rails.
no one knows where dark is.
...........because the others may or may not have spent the entirety of last night searching for him in every nook and cranny except there and they said they'd tell him if they found him and no one woke him up yet so
that means, the only logical conclusion is: he's in chosen's room.
so how is orange gonna ask chosen his question????
well, usually, chosen lets him just walk in.
s0!
here goes nothin
he opens the utterly silent door.
green made it special for cho, because they didn't want anyone to ever hear it being opened.
as a special bonus, yellow was able to code the door in such a way that it would never need any maintenance related to sound: its hinges and latches would stay pristinely quiet, forever.
so chosen doesn't wake up when orange sneaks inside.
they wake up when orange takes one step in, spots bright red, and fails to stifle a gasp.
"oh shit!!" orange whispers.
chosen's eyes peek over the covers.
"I'm sorry! i didn't know- uh, i would've- if um- i can come back later-"
they stare at him. "what's wrong." chosen prefers clear and concise, especially early in the morning.
"you-" orange carefully picks his next words. "and him-"
they're in the same bed.
"yep." chosen nods.
orange stands there.
then he shrugs.
"um, sorry. on our shows, this is always a big point of conflict. we don't know why. so i just didn't want to- you know. assume otherwise."
"oh. thanks...?" chosen blinks sleepily. "yeah, it's okay."
"okay!"
"you wanted something?"
"yeah, so-"
orange cuts off again midsentence.
TDL is beginning to stir.
dark emits the highest little squeak-whine that orange has ever heard (even compared to red's baby rabbits), and raises a hand to tug chosen back down to the pillow.
chosen turns their entire face to him, trilling.
they both perform a little brushy-brushy head bonk thing.
then chosen maneuvers their body (under the covers) so it, presumably, mingles more tightly with dark's.
this is satisfactory - for now. dark grumbles about it and stuffs his head under chosen's chin.
orange stands pixel-perfectly still by the door.
"you were saying?" chosen finally turns back to him.
"uh," orange stalls.
dark's eyes open.
he awakens with terrifying speed, untangling from chosen, hoisting up from the covers, and raising a warning fireball within milliseconds.
the room shifts into blazing color and stark shadows.
he shrieks,
"GET OUT!!!"
it seems dark does not, "okay" this situation.
orange drops, scrambles, and miraculously operates the door with enough precision to tumble out the other side unscathed.
silently, the door shuts itself behind him.
...
the fireball is put away.
...
"cho, why do you allow The Beast into your room?"
chosen snorts. "it was him who rebuilt you."
dark snarls. "are you SURE it wasn't some trick? you watched the whole time? i don't trust it."
"i trust him."
"why? how?? you do understand why i have reservations about it???"
"yes," chosen nods. "But I trust him."
They press their very cold head into dark's very warm head, and both of them sigh in relief.
"He brought me you."
dark huffs. "mm."
...
"and other things," chosen concedes. "you... weren't there."
"tell me."
...
outside, orange is still collapsed, upside down, against the wall, across from chosen's door, where he crashed earlier in his escape.
red has just found him while coming upstairs to check out the commotion.
"orange!? u okay?"
"yeap," orange strains. "all good."
"what happened?"
orange's hand flops on the floor towards chosen's door. "you were right. dark's in there."
red takes a second to digest this.
then his hands fly up to his mouth.
"what're they doing in there?????? did you see???"
"yes. i dunno."
"were they ? ? ?
fucking ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?"
orange squints at him.
through the door, two voices loudly interrupt,
"NO!"
the angrier voice adds,
"AND FUCK OFF!"
red squeaks and hurries back down the stairs.
orange sighs deeply.
this has been a terrible learning experience for all.
#--/ story#chodark#now hang on. stay with me. there is ZERO romance in this story. none.#but there are totally references to it in the context of explaining how zero the romance is in this story- it's all a joke about 0 romance#that's the point lmao#but there is? something?? i do not have words for this. p lease explain to me if you know#and there's fluff. so \o/ take that how you will#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava orange#ava the chosen one#ava the dark lord#i just realized this type of posting first about the ending before any of the beginning is what Handplates did.......#......... heh. go read that if you haven't it's really good storytelling#anyhow WHAT IS HAPPENING I NEVER WRITE THIS MUCH THIS FAST AAAAWAWAA#im enjoying myself but also trying not to overextend <o> y'know?? y'know#that's it for now 🎉🎊💥💕✨👋💖💫💤🕳️🦞#edit: the wise one has spoken. we shall call this pairing...#qpr#queer platonic relationship#\o/🎊 congratulations to the happy mutual administrative associates#executable!au#ava au
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#it’s totally normal and not weird to go on your church’s youtube and rewatch a service at which you were present#for the sole purpose of staring at the back of the cute guy you’ll never have the courage to talk to#…right?#i do not have many talents but one of them is getting a brain-shatteringly intense crush on a man i have never spoken to every few years#it’s a very small church full of mainly older folks and he just showed up like three months ago#and some part of me wonders…why???#my inner mrs bennet is like#single man in possession of handsome face and seemingly quite lovely personality#(for instance this week he gave a ride to an older lady who can’t drive 🥺)#should be in want of a wife!#what are you doing here sir#there is literally only one single woman your age and she is an average looking disaster with social anxiety disorder#i’m getting all in my head about whether or not i’m imagining that he keeps glancing in my direction#because…why would he#AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH i need to go to bed before i go insane
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